Itsucks.

Have you ever miss someone until you cry?

Okay, let me tell you how it feels.

This was taken a year ago and just happened that carolling wasn't crash with any other events.

I remember me being a "Santa lady", wearing this costumes walking around, having fun in every houses.

This was the last house of the night if I'm not mistaken, it was the biggest one and we had fun there.

We had fun "exploring" the house, karaoke, watching movie and so on.

This photo was taken and I really really love this photo very much and those people in the photo are the ones I'm missing right now, in the middle of the night.

They are my sisters in Christ, my best friends and the ones I can be crazy with.

This is my godbrother and just to be honest with you, he's the one I miss the most.

We haven't seen each other for months.

I'm not around when he is and he is not around when I am.

How sad huh.

He's being really busy for his studies, and he's having finals soon, that's all I know. *If I'm not mistaken, heh*

We usually talk through WhatsApp but recently we don't.

When was the last time we chatted? Last month.

Heh, I actually have to scroll all the way down to find our conversation, how sad.

I've always wanted to talk to him, but I told myself not to disturb him and let him study.

We'll always have time to chat after his finals, right?

Good luck in your finals dear brother, we'll have fun after that okay?

Another one that I'm close with, my pretty godcousin.

We often meet each other but we rarely speak recently.

We have so many stories to tell each other but we don't have any time.

She's having test too.

It's kinda sad that she can't stay back every Sunday to spend time with us.

We could tell each other stories if she could stay back on Sunday.

What's sad is that her test is after Christmas, means that she'll have to keep studying before Christmas.

I think it sucks because it kills your Christmas mood.

These two brothers in Christ a.k.a buddies, they've been working after PMR.

I rarely see them in Church now.

I miss those fun and jokes when you guys were around man.

And of course, there are some that I didn't mention, but that doesn't mean that I don't miss them.

I do, really.

You know, I was actually crying just now, thinking of the ones that I miss.

I'm happy that we're having events like Christmas party, youth gathering and camp soon and I'm really excited for it.

But not all of them could join.

I know, they have their own reasons for not joining, I don't blame them.

I just.. Miss them a lot.

FYI, I don't really cry because of missing people besides my family, when I do, it means that those are the ones I truly care.

There was once, I met my best friend after tuition by coincidence, I hugged her and I cried.

It was because I miss her, so badly.

After that I went back home, I listened to a song, not sure if it's a song about friendship, I cried.

And yes, until now, I still do.

Urghh, you know, it's just sucks.

I just hope that I could meet them and have fun together soon.

And I pray to God that He will figure out a way for us, He will plan for us and bring us together to have fun again.

I believe He will.

In Jesus name I pray, Amen.

Oh and Santa, can you hear what I want?